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Request for Prayer

Thursday, November 25, 2004 read close 2 speaks

I am in need of a sponsor for my current post graduate studies. Therefore now I am applying for PASCA which requires me to hand up a 5-page proposals which I have to finish it by today. Please pray for wisdom and guidance from above as I complete this proposal of mine. Do continue pray for this scholarship too as it will be a blessing to me if I able to obtain such scholarship :) Thanks!

Could I Ever - Planet Shakers

Friday, November 19, 2004 read close 0 speaks

All That I Want small
Planet Shakers - Could I Ever
from the album All That I Want

Words and music by Henry Seeley

© 2003 Planet Shakers Publishing

When I woke up today
And thought of all the things You’d done
I find myself here
Feeling oh so overcome

You gave Your life away for me
Truly my heart belongs to You
So let me say

How could I ever thank You for
What You did at Calvary
When You bled and died for me
How could I ever turn away
Knowing that You paid the price
That I could never pay

When I think of the way
That You died upon that Cross
Bearing my sin
Even when my heart was lost

You gave Your life away for me
Truly my heart belongs to You
So let me say

3R Needs You! (again)

Tuesday, November 16, 2004 read close 0 speaks

From Joanna Lee,

"Hi everyone, I'm stuck with 2 episodes of 3R which cannot be completed as we're still missing profiles for the show!! 3R is a TV program that seeks to empower young women by providing youths with a different perspective. We are on air every Sunday on TV3 at 7.30pm and o AstroRia on Fridays at 8.00pm."

Ep: Dating My Best Friend's Ex
Looking for someone who dated her friend's ex-boyfriend and are no longer friends with her friend. Currently, can be either still dating or broken up.

Ep: Dealing with Grief
Profile No. 1:
Someone who lost their mom/dad/boyfriend/girlfriend/close friend

Looking for a male & female profile to share about how they got over the death of their mom/dad/boyfriend/girlfriend/close friend and how they coped with grief at that time.

Profile No. 2:
Someone who had an unpleasant meeting/encounter with a friend/family but did not get to make amends as thier friend/family passed away.

Looking for female profile who would be willing to share about how she dealt with the guilt/regret and how she let go and moved on.

Would appreciate if you could help me by circulating this email to your friends and family. They can contact me at 79553345 or email joanna (at) red (dot) com (dot) my if they fit the profile and want to share their story!

What kind of Blogger I am?

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You Are a Life Blogger!

Your blog is the story of your life - a living diary.
If it happens, you blog it. And make it as entertaining as possible.

What kind of blogger are you?


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Gosh, this is what I found in my mailbox today.

GOOD NEWS! 20% discount!

Buy the following books at any of our stores [ed: Canaanland] from now until 30 November 2004 and receive a
20% discount:

A Biography Of John Sung - By Leslie T. Lyall
[ed: Yes... the book that I wanted to buy]

Retail Price: RM29.90
Offer Price: RM23.92
(Available now!)

A Biblical Approach To Chinese Traditions And Beliefs - By Daniel Tong
[ed: I officially now added this to my Bless Me list]
Retail Price: RM26.90
Offer Price: RM21.52
(Available now!)

Heaven Is So Real - By Choo Thomas
[ed: Yeah.. Thomas, your beloved said this is a good book rite?]
Retail Price: RM27.00
Offer Price: RM21.60
(Stocks arriving on Wednesday, 17 November 2004)

So.. anyone, bless me? ;)

Where to be?

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This is a question I long to know, and something that I am still pondering on. Just wanted to share with you what I have recently discovered.

I have been called to take up Computer Science as my first degree (which I might write about it one day), and later then during my years in UPM, I have been given the burden to make a difference in campus. God has miraculously arranged me to learn many things through difference positions and places during these three years of grace (that's what I called my undergraduate years). I have been given a second chance in building a relationship with God, learning to be like Christ Jesus. It is an amazing experience in knowing Him, and seeking for His will.

It's been sometime, I have been repeatedly asking God this question, "Where to be?". I have the idea of making a difference by serving as a government university lecturer, and has been looking for opportunities to achieve this. First I thought of getting myself tied with a government scholarship contract, where I will have to fulfill the contract by serving them for few years if I got accepted as a NSF scholar. Nevertheless, God has denied this move. Later on, I just realised one day, a thought just came into my mind, saying "If I want you to be lecturer, I will give it to you surely. Why you a step ahead and try to solve it? I can give you directly. You don't need to find ways to achieve this."

Indeed, just one day later, I was told by my ex-schoolmate where my ex-faculty has many vacancies as tutors. So I did applied, and even met up with my ex-Head of Department to discuss of the possibility of joining his department. His reply was rather positive, and therefore I submitted my application to the office, letting them handle the rest. Nevertheless, God has given a "No No" on this. I wasn't called for interview.

Where to be, then? I am sure that 6 to 12 months later I will surely graduate with my second degree and it's time to move on. Full time study in Bible college? I doubt so, I believe that God will use me with the two pieces of certificates in certain area. So full time shouldn't be possible for a start. Of course, part time study is really something I would put into consideration. What else then? Where to be?

I assure you, this is getting more erry (in a way). To a certain extend, I do not deny that I have been avoiding an issue - Mission. I always assume that I will be in Malaysia, and in Klang most probably. But recent events have really shaken up this shallow idea. Somehow, every meeting that I attended, every sermon I listened to, has been very precious to me.

David Harley was among us in KPC two weeks ago, and he spoke on mission (yes he did!). At that moment, I was reminded of the fact that many of us (so that means 'us' includes me) has pushed aside the consideration of being involved in mission. He spoke on China too, where foreign professionals (instead of missionary) can easily enter the country. He stated that Chinese over China has great demand in learning English, and we can easily enter the country by teaching English.

As the Kluangnites came over to celebrate Deparaya with us, I was asked to bring them around and that includes attending Rev. Stephen Tong's Bible Expository on the book of Romans. Some of you should know, I never attended the bible expository. Nevertheless, He has spoken on mission (again), and touches on China (again). When meeting ended, I saw a stall selling the John Sung's biography which I really looking forward to purchase, though I felt that the price of RM30 was a bit too expensive to buy. The sister later then explain to me about the pricing factor, and offered me a Sundar Singh's book, which I grab it straight as it's only RM10. Just finish paying the book, I just then realised, it's a book on mission (again). Maybe here I need to clarify a bit, I do know who is Sadhu Sundar Singh, and what he did. The reason I bought the book (other than the pricing factor :), was knowing that it is great to read about his life. Though, I didn't realised, it's mission (again).

Alright, until here it is. Mission is the topic I need to understand more. Though it doesn't mean that I will be a missionary, but I know this is something I need to learn and understand. Then I might have, a better view of - the Great Comission.

I Go Crazy!

Monday, November 15, 2004 read close 0 speaks

Arrgghhh!!! The project I am currently undertaking supposed to finish soon, very soon. Yet, today I just couldn't pass my session variables back to my index page. It works previously when I tested 2 days ago.. I really need a CVS.... this makes me crazy! :S

(ed: After rounds and rounds of debugging, realised my notebook's PHP session went cuckoo... :S Therefore, nothing wrong with my codes... just the PHP itself.... !!)

Talk about It - Nicole C. Mullen

Saturday, November 13, 2004 read close 0 speaks

Talk about It - Nicole C. Mullen
Nicole C. Mullen - Call On Jesus
From the album Talk About it

Lyrics may not be reproduced without permission from the publisher.
Listened on the Positive & Encouraging K-LOVE.

I'm so very ordinary
Nothing special on my own
I have never walked on water
I have never calmed a storm
Sometimes I'm hiding away form the madness around me
Like a child who's afraid of the dark

But when I call on Jesus
All things are possible
I can mount on wings like eagles and soar
When I call on Jesus
Mountains are gonna fall
'Cause He'll move heaven and earth to come rescue me when I call

Weary brother
Broken daughter
Widowed, widowed lover
You're not alone
If you're tired and scared of the madness around you
If you can't find the strength to carry on

repeat chorus

Call Him in the mornin'
In the afternoon time
Late in the evenin'
He'll be there
When your heart is broken
And you feel discouraged
You can just remember that He said
He'll be there

Even Microsoft Pirates!

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Never expect this, but check it out what Slashdots and a PC-Welt magazine said about this? Link here.

Let's get tidy up! (Full Version)

Thursday, November 11, 2004 read close 1 speaks

Hi, here's the full version as I promised ;) Didn't really have time to just sit down and jot down what happened in the past whole month. Nevertheless, here's the story.

The previous blog entry titled Looking Back... has said much about the in and out of my research, and how God bless me and lead me going through this interesting journey. As for this moment, my research title has finally confirmed and I am given green light to proceed and finish the project in a year's time. Praise the Lord that yesterday I finally presented my "pre-research" to Prof. Borhan and Dr. Dzahar has really helped much throughout the whole process.

For certain reason, God has given me many opportunities to meet up with many IK members and have really fruitful discussion with each of them. Even though at that period of time, I was actually very stressed out and I told God that I would not volunteered to meet up with anyone, but let You arrange and let people approach me first if they would like to have any discussion. Weird isn't it, I just received SMS and meeting up people which I normally don't meet up for past few weeks before semester comes to an end.

God has been working in UPM, many people has become more and more serious about reading God's word. Even though the thing that motivated them to do might not be something that we would like it to happened, nevertheless God has use something unpleasing to be something that is pleasing to His sight! :) And here I would really encourage my friends here too, who ever have access to the Word of God, you should go back to the basic too, know the word, know the context, know the original text ;)

Anyway, continue my story, I was really very depressed as I might have the tendency of failing my first paper in university as my passing grade was B+ (75%). I have to study many things that I never learnt before. Last semester I was taking one paper which requires background understanding of some Software Engineering techniques, which I failed to understand even till now :S Somehow I also made a mistake by taking up a Engineering subject which I thought it was a theoretical paper which ended to be a pain to myself as it is a paper completely focuses on mathematical solutions. Nevertheless, God's grace is really sufficient for us. I just receive my result yesterday (too!) which I have already blog it yesterday entitled Praise God!!.

My failure in arranging a proper time schedule for myself has causes my life in the past one month a complete nightmare. Just as what Melody and Doreen has said, I am really treating the Red Ruby apartment as my hotel, because I only use it to sleep. I didn't even have time to just sit at home and relax. This, is a lesson which I will remember and will not repeat again. Why? Because this has really suck out every single energy that I have and I just burnt off like a dead cat (or should I say.. pig? ;).

Most important of all, God has given me assurance of His mercy and grace. He has shown me that I have chosen the right path in taking up this research. No matter how I am, what I do, He is still with me. At the time where I felt that I have made a mistake in joining this research, He reassured me again and again.

"So I tell you, don't worry about everyday life - whether you have enough food, drink, and clothes. Doesn't life consist of more than food and clothing? Look at the birds. They don't need to plant or harvest or put food in barns because your heavenly Father feeds them. And you are far more valuable to him than they are. Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? Of course not."
- Jesus Christ

Praise God!!

Wednesday, November 10, 2004 read close 0 speaks

My 1st semester result is out! check it out man ;)

This really amazing, as I really struggled much in this semester. I am taking this subject called "Advanced OOP" which I don't understand 50% of it as it keep mentioning many software engineering techniques which none of it that I could comphrehend. Another subject is "Data Network", which I thought it was much related to my networking line, which ended up to be an endless calculation based on poison and many other advance mathematics which I long forgotten (actually, to be more precise, a subject that I forsaken since Form 5? ;)

Ah.. really... Praise God. His grace is sufficient for me.

My result.. you can check here :)

Malaysian Driving Attitude

Tuesday, November 09, 2004 read close 4 speaks

Personally I dislike criticizing people, but after reading TV Smith's Gold for Eigth, I just can't forget many "friendly" encounters I met on Malaysian roads.

Recent years there's been sign of emergence of many characters shown on the road, which should be part of our glorious rich culture and can be considered to be listed as teaching material in our successful teaching topic of "Pendidikan Moral".

1. "Efficient"
Many unsatisfied Malaysian driver towards PWD (a.k.a. JKR) on their road construction, Malaysian try to modify the width of the road by squeezing their cars by making a 2-lane road become a 4-lane road, by taking over 4-th lane (emergency lane) or any lane that does not goes with the same direction.

2. "Recycle"
For the cause of saving the natural resources, adhering to Government's call to "Recycle, that what you do, Recycle...", Malaysian drivers decided to utilize the under utilized 2-lane wide road leads to Kerinchi Link from KL nearby Midvalley, by redirecting traffic towards Federal highway (KL-PJ). Creating a 5-lane to 3-lane bottleneck, which should be listed as a Malaysian Book of Records.

3. "Blind"
For many people ignorantly look down at physical incomplete people, some Malaysian thinks that is wrong. Yes! Many Malaysian drivers took the call by acting blind, by halting their cars on yellow boxes, which were meant to be "no stopping zone". Nevertheless, the common response is - "Eh? What yellow-box?". Such Support-The-Blind drive has been extremely successful, and should be listed as part of the Malaysian Book of Record.

4. "Fish-monger"
Owing to the recent raise of fish prices, many Malaysian decided to cut cost by "sell-fish". You will be seeing many drivers on the top using their horn to force people to cross a junction or even to ignore red traffic light which indicates stop.

5. "Cut-cost"
In the spirit of cutting cost, reduce budget and spent wisely, some Malaysian drivers decided to save on their battery maintenance through reduce the number of use on their signal lights. No more signal indication will be given to all road users.

6. "Caring"
Malaysian are famous for hospitable and caring people. Some drivers really took pity of those emergency patient found rushing to hospital in an ambulance. They would follow closely behind the ambulance right after the ambulance passes them.

7. "Multi-tasking"
Malaysian drivers tend to do many things while they are on the road. Maybe this is the side effect of using Microsoft Windows. Other than talking on the phone, sms and icq on road, many tends to have a quick meal over the wheels too. Not only "curing" their stomach, they always been caring enough to fertilize the road by throwing out their left overs out of their windows.

There's more, but enough to say. For those who are not behaving on road, I do look down on you. Silly you, causing many inconvenience to other road users. For those who think they did nothing wrong, please don't act righteous. Silly you, stop dreaming.

For those who does behave on the road, I respect you and there will be a better future for us Malaysian, hopefully.

A New TV3 Programme Needs You!

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A new TV programme made for TV3 titled "1,2,3" which is a programme focuses on parenting produce by RedCommunication.

They are now urgently looking for baby home videos. There will be a winner for each week's programme if one are chosen as the funniest or best of the week.

"So, go get or borrow a camcorder and start shooting!" quoted from a friend :)

Details can be obtained from here.

It's a Beautiful Day

Monday, November 08, 2004 read close 0 speaks

Took this while my journey back from Serdang. Isn't it beautiful? :)

Let's get tidy up!

Sunday, November 07, 2004 read close 0 speaks

It's been a frantic month. Life ain't as what I myself expected. Ups and downs throughout the whole month that has really much affected myself. Praise God that it has come to an end. First thing to do now, is to do physical tidiness, and this will start with cleaning up two of my rooms. Shall update more soon (when I have time to collect all the details that I would like to share here :) Soon... I promise, soon ;)

Our Love is Loud - Passion

Friday, November 05, 2004 read close 0 speaks

Our Love Is Loud lead by David Crowder
From the album Passion, Our love is loud

When we sing
Hear our songs to You
When we dance
Feel us move to You
When we laugh
Fill our smiles with You
When we lift our voices louder still
Can You hear us?
Can You feel?

We love You, Lord
We love You
We love You (2x)

When we sing loud
Hear our songs to You
When we dance 'round
Feel us move to You
When we laugh aloud
Fill our smiles with You
When we lift our voices louder still
Can You hear us?
Can You feel?

We love You, Lord
We love You
We love You(3x)

And our love is big
Our love is loud
Fill this place
With this love now (4x)

(chorus) (4x)

Let's lift our voices louder still
Our God is near
Our God is here (2x)

Lift your voices louder still
Our God is near
Our God is here (2x)

(chorus) (2x)

X-rated Mopiko

Tuesday, November 02, 2004 read close 0 speaks

View Here (I find it very irritating myself ;)

Haha... what's on your mind? ;)
Thank you Andrik for sending me this :)

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