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Looking back...

Friday, October 29, 2004 read close 0 speaks

It's 3pm. Much work on hand, but yet undone. Recently I have been struggling much in concentrating myself to the over flowing workload that is upon me. Summing up the situation, I am just not in the right mood to work. Not saying that I am an emotional type of person, but just that I am having much thoughts of many decisions that I going to make this month, or next, particulary November.

Looking back, I really thank God that I have made the right decision in many things that if I don't, I wouldn't be who I am today. It's been really being in a very difficult situation last June, when my first degree result was put on hold by the university for some arbitrary reason. At that time, there's very high probablity that I would be rejected to conduct my master's research on July. I was at the edge of doubting my decision to do research after my first degree. Nevertheless, God has make it in such a way that, I was given a conditional entry for my research, assumming I do achieve the requirements set by them.

Now it's soon November, I am now soon to complete my first semester in my research. This auspicious occasion doesn't come just like that. Just few weeks before, I was given a total rejection of my research proposal. Yeah, totally. At that time, I really thought (again) that maybe I made a mistake of taking this step of faith, and face the ultimate consequence. Yet, God has been very merciful to me. In the midst of dissapointed and even depression, God has shed light upon me regarding of my research field. Without realising it, somehow each day I succesfully obtain and receive many solid and useful data for my topic. Not only that, I was given the wisdom to even able to identify the uncovered area of the topic I am persuing. I always thought, it was impossible. Yet in God, everything is possible.

Recently I have been email corresponding with Richard S. Hall, a well-respected person in the field of study which I am currently undertaking. He has pointed out many useful hints and information that leads me to my confirmation of my research topic last week. I am very grateful for his kindness and willingness in helping me to understand many concepts of OSGi (Alright... that is my field of study, and I will not explain in detail what is OSGi :D So you don't need to complain alright ;). To show my gratitude, I invited him to join the infamous GMail. I am sure he's exploring his GMail account now ;)

I will be presenting my topic to both of my supervisory committee (Prof. Borhan and Dr. Dzahar) this coming Monday.

Thank you Lord, for guiding me along this path. Indeed, we can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they are good for us - they help us learn to endure. And endurance develops strength of character in us, and character strengthens our confident expectation of salvation. And this expectation will not disappoint us. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love. (Romans 5:3-5, NLT)

Recently, just few days back, I was struck with this group named F.I.R., and really, I am addicted to it. Maybe, it is because their songs reflect my recent mixed of feelings.

3R Needs You!

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From: "Joanna Lee" [snip]
To: [snip]
Subject: Fw: 3R Looking for profiles!
Date: Wed, 27 Oct 2004 14:12:05 +0800

Hi!! We are currently producing an episode for 3R entitled 'Dating My Bestfriend's Ex" and looking for profiles to be interviewed on the show.

Profile 1
Someone who dated her friend's ex-boyfriend and are no longer friends with her friend. Currently, can be either still dating or broken up.

Profile 2
Someone whose friend dated her exboyfriend.

If you know anyone who fits the bill, please get them to contact me either via email (joanna [at] red [dot] com [dot] my) or call my office at 03-79553345. Would appreciate if you could help pass this around to your friends and family!



Fly Away - F.I.R.

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清晨的微风 如此的平凡
看似简单 雾气驱散
温柔阳光中 慢慢醒了过来

在新的世纪 该抛开过去
是好是坏 要放得开
往梦想的路 没有想像简单

回忆就像漩涡 它将我拉走
时间的钟响起 我不该逗留

Fly away 不管流下多少眼泪
Nothing I will be afraid

Fly away 不管未来有多困难
我仍然能感觉 心跳还在
Nothing I will be afraid

词曲:作词:F.I.R. 作曲:F.I.R. 编曲:黄汉青(F.I.R.)/奥斯卡

If We are the Body - Casting Crows

Thursday, October 28, 2004 read close 0 speaks


Casting Crowns - If We Are The Body
From the album Casting Crowns

Lyrics may not be reproduced without permission from the publisher.
Listened on the Positive & Encouraging K-LOVE.

It's crowded in worship today
As she slips in trying to fade into the faces
The girls teasing laughter is carrying farther than they know
Farther than they know

But if we are the body
Why aren't His arms reaching?
Why aren't His hands healing?
Why aren't His words teaching?
And if we are the body
Why aren't His feet going?
Why is His love not showing them there is a way?
There is a way

A traveler is far away from home
He sheds his coat and quietly sinks into the back row
The weight of their judgmental glances
Tells him that his chances are better out on the road

Jesus paid much too high a price
For us to pick and choose who should come
And we are the body of Christ

Jesus is the way

I Can Only Imagine - Mercy Me

Wednesday, October 27, 2004 read close 0 speaks

MercyMe - I Can Only Imagine
From the album Almost There

Lyrics may not be reproduced without permission from the publisher.
Listened on the Positive and Encouraging K-Love.

I Can Only Imagine
What it will be like
When I walk
By your side

I can only imagine
What my eyes will see
When your face
Is before me
I can only imagine

Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel
Will I dance for you Jesus or in awe of you be still
Will I stand in your presence or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine

I can only imagine
When that day comes
And I find myself
Standing in the Son

I can only imagine
When all I will do is forever
Forever worship You
I can only imagine

Oh No! Not my favourite gadget :P

Tuesday, October 26, 2004 read close 0 speaks

Malaysian government has decided to reclassified wireless PDA (bluetooh and WiFi) and will incurs a 10% sales tax, pumping extra cash into our national treasury. This decision is made with immediate effect and company like HP already have plan to rise the prices of their iPAQs.

With the tremendous price drops worldwide (and supposed Malaysia) on wireless capable PDA, this move made by our dearest Malaysia Customs Department might send us to the opposite direction... And I couldn't imagine how much would consumers suffer from price hike, by all the sellers whom already very tempted to play a part in causing unnecessary inflation due to the recent so-called "petrol crisis".

Alive in Love - The Swift

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The Swift - Alive in Love
From the album Today

Lyrics may not be reproduced without permission from the publisher.
Listened on Positive and Encouraging K-Love.

I never knew how great Your love could be
I can’t believe the price You paid for me
You carried all my sin upon Your shoulders
Now death could never take a hold of me

I am alive in Love
You gave Your life to me
To show me the grace that my eyes couldn’t see
I am alive in Love
A love that will never die
Jesus, Your Love is what keeps me alive

After all that You have done for me
All I can do is give You everything
I want to lay my life down at Your feet, Lord
Because You freely gave Your life to me

Repeat Chorus

O Samy, Where Art Thou?

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At start, problem doesn't seems like a problem, until the snow ball getting rolled bigger and bigger. Maybe, this is not your responsibility at all. Just like others, you might be just an innocent victim of irresponsible contractors and implementors. As no one should take up full responsibilities for fatal car accidents that happened along highway, other than the drivers themselves. Ignoring the fact of fatal designs of highways... the infamous killer tol plaza just right before Ipoh, and the new highway...

Politics was never that fair and lovely, opportunist always starving for opportunity to kick out their political rivals. Maybe, hanging banner is just a silly act done for personal interest. But I have one question in mind...

O Samy, Where Art Thou?

Yes. Resignation was never solution to all these problems. But, Tai-chi is never a solution too. Being a caring and responsible person will make a day brighter and lovelier :)

Shift House (Blog... Not the Physical one ;)

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Finally I have decided to move all my gumblings and blogs related to my personal life here. While 7amps would remain as my technical and article blogs. Some might ask why blogspot/blogger and not xanga? I have no idea, frankly speaking. Maybe, I just prefer to be different :D

Work #1

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GPMportal undergoing works,

  1. Adminstration Control Panel System (in progress)
  2. Content - (in progress)
  3. Prayer - (waiting to be ported from News module)
  4. Publish (Tian Huo and ESPress) - (waiting to be ported from News module)
  5. Hotlink - (waiting to be ported from News module)
  6. Forum (start soon)


Monday, October 25, 2004 read close 0 speaks

After a week's of unintended internet fast, I just realised all emails sent to kiawin at holiao dot com was not retrieved by my thunderbird. 800 mails!! Backdated all the way to 16 September ! :S

Sorry if I didn't reply your mail uh....

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