The previous blog entry titled Looking Back... has said much about the in and out of my research, and how God bless me and lead me going through this interesting journey. As for this moment, my research title has finally confirmed and I am given green light to proceed and finish the project in a year's time. Praise the Lord that yesterday I finally presented my "pre-research" to Prof. Borhan and Dr. Dzahar has really helped much throughout the whole process.
For certain reason, God has given me many opportunities to meet up with many IK members and have really fruitful discussion with each of them. Even though at that period of time, I was actually very stressed out and I told God that I would not volunteered to meet up with anyone, but let You arrange and let people approach me first if they would like to have any discussion. Weird isn't it, I just received SMS and meeting up people which I normally don't meet up for past few weeks before semester comes to an end.
God has been working in UPM, many people has become more and more serious about reading God's word. Even though the thing that motivated them to do might not be something that we would like it to happened, nevertheless God has use something unpleasing to be something that is pleasing to His sight! :) And here I would really encourage my friends here too, who ever have access to the Word of God, you should go back to the basic too, know the word, know the context, know the original text ;)
Anyway, continue my story, I was really very depressed as I might have the tendency of failing my first paper in university as my passing grade was B+ (75%). I have to study many things that I never learnt before. Last semester I was taking one paper which requires background understanding of some Software Engineering techniques, which I failed to understand even till now :S Somehow I also made a mistake by taking up a Engineering subject which I thought it was a theoretical paper which ended to be a pain to myself as it is a paper completely focuses on mathematical solutions. Nevertheless, God's grace is really sufficient for us. I just receive my result yesterday (too!) which I have already blog it yesterday entitled Praise God!!.
My failure in arranging a proper time schedule for myself has causes my life in the past one month a complete nightmare. Just as what Melody and Doreen has said, I am really treating the Red Ruby apartment as my hotel, because I only use it to sleep. I didn't even have time to just sit at home and relax. This, is a lesson which I will remember and will not repeat again. Why? Because this has really suck out every single energy that I have and I just burnt off like a dead cat (or should I say.. pig? ;).
Most important of all, God has given me assurance of His mercy and grace. He has shown me that I have chosen the right path in taking up this research. No matter how I am, what I do, He is still with me. At the time where I felt that I have made a mistake in joining this research, He reassured me again and again.
"So I tell you, don't worry about everyday life - whether you have enough food, drink, and clothes. Doesn't life consist of more than food and clothing? Look at the birds. They don't need to plant or harvest or put food in barns because your heavenly Father feeds them. And you are far more valuable to him than they are. Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? Of course not."
- Jesus Christ
